Visualization

I know there's so much more to visualization than what I'm currently doing, but due to my deadlines I have not yet had the time to delve in and read about it. What I had been told early on was to imagine the tumor getting smaller and smaller with each radiation treatment.

Today marks the end of my third week, and the images that pop into my mind as I lay face down have changed over time. At first it was a alien-like little guy coming out of a donut shaped object, getting blasted by a fire-hose. When the buzzing of the radiation starts he doesn't know what hit him, and he flails around until he gets knocked down to nothing. With each of the 3 beams, he tries to get back up but eventually gets shriveled away. Over these 3 weeks, I let my mind go and they just appear. It's morphed into a laser beam doing much the same, but oddly enough the "guy" has been in an innertube with a foo-foo drink when he gets blasted, then holding a picket sign. Interestingly, this week when I lay there and think "okay, what 'chya got for me today" ...it's a charred black oval object that appears on end, and gets chiseled away by the blast. Yesterday it was noticeably smaller than on Monday. I'm thinking this is all a good sign.

It will be few more weeks yet before they check to see if the tumor has shrunk. They don't want to do it too soon, in order to give it enough time and so I don't get discouraged.